It's Only A Test!

Yesterday during my pastor's sermon, he reminded us of the sermon that he preached to us on January 2nd, 2011. As he spoke and walked us through the scripture, all I could do was thank God for having me in the right place at the right time on January 2nd when he reminded us that "it was only a test" - the experiences, the setbacks, the let-downs we we experienced were only a test of our faith and that out of those tests came our testimony. We had what we call "stupid" church that day and I left that service on an emotional high and excited about all the wonderful things that were in store for 2011.  As with any new year, I had done my goal planning (not resolutions but set goals with a plan of action) and was ready to embrace the new experiences and life lessons of 2011. Boy, was I in for a shock. 


Literally, the moment I got out of service I received news that changed the dynamic of my family and seriously tested my faith and belief.  As I was walking to my car, I pulled out my cell phone to call my dad and saw that I had over 15 missed calls from 3 different family members with no voice mails or text messages.  I knew instantly something had happened. 


My mother is the oldest of 12 children.  We're a very close-knit family.  My grandmother used to always tell us "to take care of one another" and that's something we've done.  Everyone has their own role within the family and when someone is missing they are truly missed.  I grew up having sleepovers at my grandparents' house with my cousins and younger aunt and uncles - wrestling matches, Red Light/Green Light, Simon Says, talent shows, hop scotch, knuckles, spades, pitty pat and tunk were staples.  We go on an annual girls trip every year with the aunts and girl cousins where there is plenty of laughter, food, bargain shopping and bonding. I was in tears the years I had to miss our family cookout in July and spent the whole weekend texting my cousins so I could be part of the fun.


On January 2nd, my youngest uncle passed away unexpectedly at 42 years young.  To lose a part of the circle was an emotional blow to us all.  The words from my pastor's sermon stuck through me during the days, weeks and months to follow.  His death brought us closer to one another. It reminded us how precious life is and not to take one another for granted.


To start the year out on such an emotional roller coaster could have deterred me from my goals for the year.  I'll admit that I went through a period of time where I felt stagnant, but I was able to recognize it and force myself to keep pushing on (with the help of some wonderful relatives and friends who are very assertive!).


I can definitely confirm that the tests of this past year have given me a testimony for 2011.  As I sit here and listen to my 8 week old babble and giggle, I'm reminded of the circle of life - my family was mourning the loss of of one member, another was forming in my womb. 


Keep pushing Divas! Despite the setbacks and letdowns you may have experienced this year, keep moving.  Focus on the positive and change what you can. You may not have accomplished all that you set out to in 2011 but be thankful you are still here to continue pressing towards your goals.


Be Blessed Divas and have an awesome week!!!